Akaay Age 24,

I came into the garden with those kids. They were giggling. I smiled. I don't like what my father did. But in all this, these kids aren’t at fault. They didn’t do anything. It is their parents' fault. and why we suffer their mistakes.

“What’s your name, twins?” I asked them. While sitting on the ground in the garden.

“Mein Advik,” the boy said, joining me on the ground.

“Or mera naam hai Arya” the girl said. smiling at me. I smiled back. She sat on the ground too.

“Kya hum apko bhai bol sakte hai” advik asked looking at me. He seems more mature than me.

“Kyu nahi hai toh hum bhai behen hi. Why should we suffer because of our parents.” I assured them that I don't have any problems with them. They both nodded their heads in agreement. Mature kids.

or ab toh tum log yaha rahoge. ab or maza ayega us khadus ko pareshan karne me.” I said, smiling at them. But their smiles faded. I looked at them confused. but before I could ask them. Arya started to speak.

“Dad said we are only here to meet you. After this we have to go back to the hostel. so we can be safe by hiding.” Arya said in a sad tone. I felt bad. First, me. Now these kids. I won't let this happen again.

“Don’t worry I will talk to dad about this” I said, making their eyebrows raise. They looked at each other with wide eyes. They smiled.

“Really bhai” they both said in unison. I nodded my head. and they both jumped at me. hugging me. and I fall on the ground. Ouch I said. We laughed. laying under the blue sky. talking and laughing together we found a new bond between us.

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“So you lied to me again” I said in my calm, sassy tone.

“It was needed to keep you all safe akaay” father said to me in a serious tone.

“You should have thought this before our birth. You chose this. Why should we suffer your consequences? "I growl at him. I try to be calm but I can't today.

“I know that’s my fault, that's why I'm suffering this much. I was keeping you safe. But try to understand. "Father said, still in a calm tone, looking at me.

“Understand what dad. that you have two wives or more. you have kids with every woman you meet. you left them…” I was talking when I stopped.

I felt a sharp pain on my right cheek. I put my hand on the burning sensation. My vision blurred a little. I saw my dads hand in the air. I understood what happened. slap. He slapped me.

My tears were on the urge to come. But before that i saw my dad’s eyes. there were tears in that. Did I hurt him that badly? I made him cry. I don't do this. I don't make people cry.

“I’m sorry dad” I said . He nodded his head. and I left. I know he needs space too. He is like me. actually i;m like him. We always need space when we are hurt.I came out of the room.

“Yeh sab tumhari galti he. manhoos muh. you should stop being so blunt.” I said to my mouth. slapping my mouth with my palm. I forgot I was in the corridor. I heard some chuckle. I saw the twins laughing at me.

“Akaay bhai jump kyu kar rahe ho yaha” Arya said, controlling her left.

“Mein bohot cool hu na. cool log aise hi hote. I gotta go "I smile at them. while running away from them. God, this is so embarrassing. phele hi din apne siblings ke samne bezzati kara di.

I heard them chuckle from behind me. I don't mind, I know I'm a cool crazy person. Whatever happens , we should smile. I turned and laughed too. ‘Zindagi jhandwa fir bhi ghamdwa’ is the perfect phrase for me.

I came into my room. closed the door behind me. I was standing there. and my coolness is gone. I'm a sad soul too. and I don’t want to hide that from me. When I'm alone I always do this. No more smiles. just me and my thoughts.

I got hit by my father for the first time. tears came to my eyes. I hurt my dad and it’s hurting me more than anything. But I won't let any tears fall from my eyes.

Because akaay desmukh never cries. I stopped after remembering this. my tears dry in my eyes. Not a single tear came out from my eyes. I will smile in pain.