Prologue

Akaay

“I always thought you and I together were a disaster. But I never thought we were the  most beautiful disaster.” I let out a long breath and said to her, “I don’t know how much life I have to live. But one thing I know I want to live with for the rest of my life. Can I be with you as your life partner as your husband”. I looked at her. Her light brown eyes always mesmerise me. She looked at me and let out a deep sigh.

Then she said what I never expected. “We are so different I don't think we can do this.” My heart stopped. It's breaking. I know I can hear breaking glasses inside my chest. It's shattered now.

I want her but I can't have her.

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He was on top of me. He removed the last piece of cloth on my body. then covered us in a bedsheet. “It’s your first time. tell if it hurts or it’s uncomfortable” he said while touching my cheeks. I was ready for him to enter me.

I've been waiting to feel this. to feel him. I never thought a man would ever say something like this to me. in bed. knowing what i feel. knowing what I do. I do love him.

Today he is going to make me his. By all means. and he is making this moment beautiful like he is. 

Then he started to push inside of me. and was hurting like hell. I whimper. He was slow. So slow. “Should I stop?” he asked with a worried face. He had already stopped himself.

“Don’t stop, I wanna feel this. Make me yours please” I said to him. He looked at me with his eyes. “You don’t have to do this to be mine. You are mine the moment when I fell for you. okay never think like that” he said to me. I smiled and nodded my head.

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Anantha

“You should have someone who loves you, not me.” I said to him, I can see in his eyes how hurt he is. It was the moment when I knew what I had to do. That night he came and kissed me. I know it's going to happen. Still I let him inside of me. 

I don't deserve him after what happened to me. He deserves some nice girl and I no I'm not a nice girl. I'm the demon who is covered by darkness and lies. And I can't lie to him.

I want

him but I can't have him.